that one song

You might hear a romantic piece that brings out the loneliness in you. You might hear a song with motivating lyrics, it may or may not go into you, telling you, "You're not alone." It is almost inevitably to say that, music (or a song) can easily evoke your emotion. It is probably a song you have heard maybe 5years back. When you listen to it again now, you feel like you're experiencing where you were 5 years back, -- a drama you watched, a stupid thing you've done with you friends etc. At least, to me, some songs have this power, flooding you with all the memories and emotions back then. I can't be the only one.

There's a study on this. If you're interested, >> Music, Memory and Emotion 

I'm listening to this playlist on YouTube by a Taiwanese singer. And i was doing some cleaning when that song that 'Clicks' my memory came on. It's weird but i can't deny. It's painful to hear. But it also release me a little bit more.

This song grew up with me 2 years back. Each and every word stabbed right in my heart back then. Through this song, i learned how stupid was i. Through this song, i learned how tough i could be. Yes i'm one of those super emotional girls once in a while but i never let my emotions go out. Never talked to anyone how pain it is, how much 'squeezing' was there in my heart. No tears no screaming no nothing. Everything looks just fine. We all need to learn to heal ourselves from heartbreak. And that is a mission impossible for most of us. 'Time doesn't heal you, time numbs you..' How true is that? or we could. we just need a longer than expected time.

You may go hysterical, overwrought, you may go out party, eating alot, exercise the hell out of it. You may be quiet. You may be dropping your tears at night. You may be drawing shits on your diary, posting meaningless status.

No one can tell you what to do. No one can make you feel better. Seeing him/her again is a disaster. You smiled and said Hi. Your heart was racing like you were meeting him/her for the first time, hoping that s/he'll stay longer, talk to you a lil longer. On the other hand, you know you have to go or you will break down right there. You left. But you didn't win. You can never win.

You are not what you thought you are. 
And you are never gonna be the same as who you were.
Life shapes you. It takes away something from you, it implants something on you. Good ones or bad ones? Everything has two sides.


GG emo post. lol i'll stop right here. 
Good night. 
*i'm not emo now :P 

你曾说雨下的时候别低下头，要等候奇迹降落

我不懂曾想一起拥抱的彩虹，为什么只剩下我

原来呀爱情是不会留下什么  只留下残缺的梦

能不能再把你的爱借点给我  好让我继续漂流

我的倔强  疯狂  无法  逞强  流浪

是否只剩一人在寂寞战场

你的模样  说谎  眼光  装傻  躲藏  我逃亡

我的倔强  迷惘  去闯  彷徨  悲伤

是否应该不计一切去抵抗

你的模样  不像  遗忘  飘荡  摇晃  我投降

If there's anything left, let it be there, deep down, inside. 

Another Module!

Holy maaaa, Endocrine has finished and another module (reproductive system) has started. and there's only 1 month to exam. yayy.
haven't even started reading GI -.- so screwed.
So damn stressed =_=
exam in early july, cello exam on 1st August, need to sit for IELTS asap as well because the due is on 18th July, with individual band score 7.5

Cello, haiz, im trying to practice everyday. i just started to learn the third song very recently (like 2 weeks ago), i think it's okay already but im so not used to do vibrato. wanna cry. and scales, i might just die again. Hate scales.

IELTS, stupid english test. Expired every 2 years. bluhhh. and stupid IMU has just announced it like last week too. wtf. hate this English test. i hate English test. I'm so worried about my speaking test and writing test. Writing maybe still okay since i actually scored last time, just the speaking test la. i got only band 6.5 last time. They ask stupid question and want you to describe something. I still remember the question i got last time was "Describe your childhood." LOL, in that 1 minute 'thinking time', all in my head was "I don't remember." HAHAHAH

siensss.

Damn stressed damn stressed.
People needs to stop pissing me off for this one whole month especially you (typical girl from *xx) im gonna be VERY BUSY AND VERY HOT TEMPERED AND VERY IMPATIENT AND .... I MIGHT KILL YOU?
I hate myself being like this. argh. sien.
STUPID IMU.

Again, no break after exam in july, will start semester 4 straightaway. WTF?

there's a problem with my cello 2 days back. the bridge kept on popping out.

whats wrong with you babe? please behave on the exam day, please.... ><

i damn scare if the bridge pop out or break the string again on the actual exam then i mmg GG.com already. buy a new cello for this exam but ended up wasting the registration fee because of my new cello? no man.....

i think i've gave up trying to put off weight. it seems like my weight is so fixed at 48-49kg (or even 50 sometimes). fine.. lol 

the lightest i've been in recent years was also 46.5kg. A Level time HAHA 

now i just want to be less fleshy. LOL

too much adipose tissue. sedentary lifestyle since i got out of TCSH. *cry at the corner

Trying to cut carbs this week but i broke it last night and for today's lunch. so much guilt but so much yumss T^T 

okay, im gonna be strict again tmrw.

IMU gives us shitty timetable because they keep getting MORE and MORE people into the uni but there's no enough lecture halls to accommodate all of us. So we are having lectures until 7pm. lols.

And they have reinforced the formal dress code in uni. No more casual wear eventhough you don't have class. You need to dress formal even if you're just going to the library to study or to buy food at cafeteria. THIS. IS. SO. BRILLIANT! come i clap for you :)

YAY IMU! i hope you bankrupt right after my batch graduated.

Also, as time passes, especially when we're getting the IELTS ready for PMS transferring purpose, mixed up feeling is mandatory, right? Happy, Excited, worried and sad.

20140224

Guess why am i here ?
hahaha no i wasn't supposed to be studying
err, i mean, YEAH i was supposed to be studying, but i was watching drama instead. Streaming online. it was all going well until 5mins ago, POOOOFFF electricity cut off. BLAHHHHH
now reloading -.-
the wifi connection here is already sucks, and i have to wait for it to load again T_T omg.

*check back latest post*




 

well, i have actually sorted out the photos taken in Japan, but AIYA. my sem 3 started already. in fact, i got no sem break. or if you want, okay, the 3 days sem break. compare to my friends having 3months break. i am like 'pfft.' lolll

Tomorrow release result le. tbh, im scared, but not as scared as the day i sat for the exam. but recently i have got a few bad dreams about my results/osce.. -.- this morning i dreamt about i was asked to perform CPR on a patient, and i have to speak malay. LOLOLOL
okay, hopefully everything goes well ><
*pray hard*

had a lil date with him after a hectic week overloaded by heavy lectures.

we watched The Lego movie. dont laugh

it's not THAT bad, but it's very lame. hahaha. still it worth some laugh from lame and lifeless people like me =D

but whatever it is, spending time with him after a !"£$%^&* week was what i looking forward to.

hashtag : ootd

These days are tooooo hot. i mean, seriously. I thought it was just me haven't adjusted back to the hot weather yet after im back from Japan, eventually not. It. is. REALLY. HOT. it rains only once in abt 5 days, and it just drizzled and the clouds say byebye -.-

In love with this singlet already. i bought it from F21 Japan haha! it's loose and it hides my fats. *wink*

Last night we gathered at aunt's house to celebrate my grandfather's birthday, mom side gong gong. We reached around 7.40pm and grandpa wasn't there yet. Mom asked the aunt, "Eh where's lou dao?" My aunt replied "How would i know? I thought you were the one who supposed to call?"
HAHA i thought no one called him to come LOLOLOL

dadang, me with bro with mom and gong gong

hashtag : family; love; potd

I think this is my first ever photo with gong gong after so many years

i actually was quite sad because i didn't have any photo with my dad's side grandpa. so i decided to ask for one picture last night. We don't always meet but i still love them <3 

hashtag : handsome

i find him really handsome. or maybe just because he's angmoh. hahaha! you show me 10 ang moh i will say 7 are handsome. i like him being so skinny and..idk. LOL i couldn't like this photo because he actually deleted it after posting it XD but i screenshot-ed it. haha please dont find out and come and punch me okay, im just a lil fans of yours.

Also, i watched <<The Journey>> (一路有你) with Zerky and Sean Dee Justin ytd before dinner. It has been showing since 30th Jan and the cinema is still full ytd.

And it is really a good movie, for a Malaysian production, it is by far the best. No stupid characters like ah Beng etc. 

Come let me steal something from IMDb.com :

The Journey is a cross-continental story that explores the idea of culture, not just as tradition but as an expression of love. When Bee (Yew) returns to Malaysia for the first time in a decade - she introduces her conservative father Uncle Chuan (Lee) to her happy-go-lucky British fiancé, Benji (Pfeiffer). With Benji's lack of cultural understanding and comprehension of Chinese traditions, Chuan opposes their marriage. Unexpected circumstances ensue, and Chuan reluctantly submits to their union, on the condition that their wedding adheres to Chinese tradition. Part of that tradition is that Chuan must invite all of his childhood friends personally. So the quintessential odd couple, Benji and Chuan, embark on a cross country adventure to deliver the invitations. Despite language barriers and initial hesitation from both parties, the two men come to realize that their priorities are essentially one and the same.

-Plot summary by anonymous 

Starring by Sai Peng Lee, Ben Pfeiffer, Joanne Yew. A very 'Malaysian style' movie with all the kampung scenes, streets and dialogues that only Malaysians understand. hahhaha. 

Uncle Chuan is very cute lo XD

Bee grew up in British and there's a huge knot between Bee and her father. She was angry at her father about sending her away when she was only 8. But what makes an Asian Asian, is that 'family bonding'. Whatever it is, Asians' parenting and all, we know there's something we can't change, it's in our blood. 

See, i think only Asians will cry like shit to this kind of movie.

Well, Sean Dee cried, i saw Zerky wiped off tears. I was okay. They stay right in my eyes and didn't flow like a pipe, luckily. hahahahha!

Whoever hasn't watched it, you may want to catch it in cinema soon because it has been showing for so almost a month. And it's still FULL. This movie has earned the word of mouth from the viewers. Not bad.

OKAY it's almost 1am and my drama has loaded! gonna watch it and.....zzZZ

oh no, will i be able to fall asleep later >< ishh omg.

hashtag : girlsbeinggirls

HAHAHA GOOD NIGHT

GG.com

Stress kicked in like nobody's business right now!
at the middle of EOS 2
because tomorrow and thursday i'll be having OSCE (clinical skills examination), and it's a standalone exam, that's why im so worried nowwwwwwww OMGGGGGGG

sat for the evil OSPE paper this morning and it was one big piece of shit.
yesterday afternoon i was so stressed because i didn't study anything from Foundation block. The thought of killing myself came up to me a few times.
i was thinking to jump down from my apartment, or i have knives in the kitchen, bang the wall etc. i even felt like I WANNA GO CLUBBING. -.-

everytime i hit a maximum stress level, the 'screw it' emotion comes to take over. which means i don't care already. HAHHAHA that was exactly what happened last night. i watched drama and played games for hours until i feel sleepy. LOL

and i can foresee, same thing is going to happen soon because i feel like killing myself again right now.

i want to eat my ipad and choke.

turning 21..soon enough

thought i can reward myself with blogging tonight, because i have covered 3 lectures so far, 1 more later perhaps? or i will start doing my pbl. I know it might not sound productive, 3 lectures out of the 43 in just ONE SYSTEM, and i have THREE FREAKING SYSTEMS to cover for this semester, have not included the 154 foundation block's lectures. OHMYGAD

but it's my 'personal best' so far. hahahah!

have been hanging quite often nowadays, i have actually posted about my anniversary dinner on dayre already. haha!

but this post is..hmm, especially for you. my blogspot. XDXD
one more thing is because the app 'Bump' is going to shutdown by the end of this month. so i guess it's a hint, hitting me back here on my regular blog.

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Today's topic is ...
MY BIRTHDAY WISHLIST! =D

it's a brand new year and it's JANUARY :D


1st
The very first thing i want for my birthday this year is....
MORE TIME and A PASS for my exam.
i need more time to cover all the lectures man....i have exactly one month from now until my final. Now i really think that deciding to go to Japan with my family during CNY is a real bad idea T_T

i don't need flying colours, especially for my OSCE.
PLEASE HELP, GOD.



2nd
a freaking healthy body please.
my hip pain is back recently since before christmas, i figured the source of the pain is the same as the one i had few months back (i think), but this time it occurs on the right. I would say this time the pain is not as often as last time but the pain is very distracting. i couldn't sleep well, need some time to stand up slowly from a sitting position, and realize my right leg has got no strength, painful as i trying to keep my right leg straight. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU SERIOUSLY.
alot of time i take out my painkiller, but ended up not eating any tablets. because i thought i can endure it until the end of this week where i will go consult the orthepedist again.
Of course, im always hoping for health for everyone i care every year on my birthday.

i don't think i will be able to run and lift this high with this stupid painful ass.

3rd

An Aeroplane.

im not kidding. i have always wanted to learn to be a pilot (airplane, not a helicopter one). just for fun.

alright actually i was kidding about owning an aeroplane. i want a looooooong vacation instead, or alot of holidays. can be on cruise, or train! sounds romantic. Now in my list there's so many targeted destinations

USA, Northen europe to watch aurora, Rome with my husband in the future, Taiwan and Hong Kong AGAIN. HAHAH! i don't know, im not going there to do sightseeing or shopping..i just want to go there. i think i would love to live there is i could. hahahahah

but i really want to learn to fly an aeroplane!

4th

A pizza.

no, a chef.

No, a chef who will bake me pizza. hehehehe! i just love pizza so muchhhhh. i shall blow the candles on pizza instead on cakes since i don't really eat sweet stuff. haha! omnomnomnom

*btw, i want my birthday cake/pizza to have 21 small candles on it!! i love to see lots of candles XD

5th

woooohoo! yes, an iphone 6! my next phone will be apple. because my Note has been giving me lots of prob and im not trusting samsung anymore.

but yeah, this is just a random picture i got from google image, not official one.

6th

although i really want all those that i have listed up there, im still looking for a nice watch to get. nahh nahh, im just sharing my WISH. hahahaha! my kind of watch is somthing like this.. simple, elegant, no gadget at all not even dates. No numbering, but roman is acceptable. i really like  the CK watches, but those i like has got no 'second hand', which is quite crucial for us as medical student. aiya....i'll keep searching. Dad, Rolex? =D 

i find Michael Kors' watches nice as well (those featured on magazines), but i never seen them in the store. WHY LAAA

7th

Sunglasses! baby, of course i know those cheapo sunglasses are not good for the eyes. but i just find it difficult to get a pair of nice shades that i like and of an affordable price. hahaha! also i am still struggling whether to change the glasses into a power lens or not since 2-3 yrs ago. LOL until now still undecidable. because i don't really like to wear contact lens.. grr. HOW? 

8th

A storage cabinet.

yeah, because you know, im quite a messy woman. my room is like....!@#$%^&*

i realized i always have an eye on something i want but i never buy it. i wanted to buy a bookshelf-liked cabinet from ikea since last year. i went with my mum and she agreed to buy it too. but it was too long and she said my car will not fit, save it till next time -.- GRAHHH! until now. LOL

9th

something 'keys'
Because im turning 21 this year. of course im expecting something keys which symbolizes legalization and freedom. although i have alot of keys in my bag right now.
but the LV one shown in this picture looks nice. literally 'Key-chain' =P



10th

reading up till this point, you may find that you wasted some time because most of the things in my wishlist are so.... 'extraordinary'? hahahha.
actually what i want the most from people around me are Time and Attention. also what i want to give to the people around me.

I lost 2 close relative in 2weeks time last year, I also lost my dear Yeahoo. If you ask me, i regret for not paying more attention and not spending more time with them when they were still around. Yeahoo mean so much to me even though it was just 3 years. he gave me so much attention all the time. i wish i could do the same to him again.

you called me bro,

Don't ever fall for your bro

because everything will change

i have hurt someone so badly and now i don't want to do the same to you

9.3% left

oops, there's only 9.3% left for the year 2013.
are you awake yet?

i can say that im finally awake.
Respiratory block is ending this friday. only one more lecture to attend.
Two assignments due this friday, which has brought me to stress level 9238471298571 since last week. this is the thing..i always put things to the eleventh hour.
and i submitted both the assignments on Monday and Tuesday respectively. *quite proud of my ability to crap* hahaha!
talking about the crapping in works...

we had this clinic visits, and we are required to hand in a case report after each visit. Sooooo, during the second visit, we asked the sister in charged and she said we don't need to hand in case report for 2nd visit. Sooooooo, i didn't do, cause she said so. Eventually the deadline to hand in is within 3 working days from the day we visited the clinic. Soooooooo, on the D-day, in the morning, Deborah asked me if i have done the case report. Well, so i probably should hand in. And i was so chilled, i went back to my unit during the lunch break, did the report within 10mins (and eat), print out, hand in to CSSC.

A few days later i've got this email from Sister Joann saying that my case report was selected to be present on 29th Nov, there is a review session on our reports and Dr Lim wants a soft copy of my report. And i was like, WHATTT. did i really do that bad? i don't know. so i told myself, 'i didn't get that email.' XDXD 

until yesterday when i was having my afternoon nap, Sister Joann called to my cell -.- She urged me to send her the soft copy or action will be taken. Haiz. OKAY although i believe the 'action' won't be harmful, but i just send la. i won't be attending the review session anyways.

Throwback, i've been doing stuffs like this always back in high school. Challenging the rules all the time. LIVE WILD HAHAHHAHA best example i can give is, refused to go for any Mandarin class in Form4, because we had to stayback for that. i don't like. And then my whole gang didn't attend. *bad friend label*

And doing homework for History during Add Math class. "PLEASE RESPECT ME." that's what Pn K said to me. Lol, i was just doing my homework quietly.. haven't i gave you the respect already?..

okay don't deviate too much. haha!

I CURLED MY HAIR. LOL
i think the curl is ok but dying it black is definitely a wrong decision hahaah total auntie.

showing my skirt instead of the hair here! hahaha

imma try to enter casino again!

no turning back already. LOL

not much, because have been busy with academic lately. otherwise is about practicing the string ensemble. Performance is this Friday..err, in 45hrs time.
wanted to blog about Richard Clayderman's concert...also mom's birthday. ahhh but lazy la.
i just want to spend sometime here talking to the wall before i get back to revisions.

Ohh yea. I didn't know my phone can take panorama photo until last night! LOL i have been using my phone for 1yr 9mnths but i never noticed. hahahaha

jeng jeng jeng!

just done cleaning and moving my stuffs around this afternoon. and also assembled the new bookshelves there.

great workout that i can't raise my right arm now. LOL

i feel so relieved right now!!!

submitted assignments, submitted PBL file to my faci, and no class tomorrow =D

im gonna watch all the moviessss i wanted to watch since last week. have been holding back myself from going to cinema. ngiek.

HAHAHHA

ok. 3am already. Study. lol

Larynx

because we are in a mad school.

Newton's 3rd law is a shit.
no matter how hard you exert the force to
there's no equal opposing force
not always.



i wonder, if someday ...

Food Blogger wanna be : Capricciosa Pasta & Pizza @ Pavilion

i don't know why am i blogging.

i mean, im not a food blogger, tho i hope i am. HAHAHHA

i wanna eat them allllllll 

i am not a food blogger because a food blogger would order a lot of dishes, maybe with a few friends.... but i don't have that money.

i can't be a food blogger because i don't really have the time to eat out.
i can't be a food blogger because i don't have the money to eat out all the time and try out different restaurants.
i can't be a food blogger because i am very picky.
i can't be a food blogger because most of the time, i wanted to blog but i won't blog. #truestories

therefore, this will just somehow remain as a rubbish blog. everything is here. HAHAHAHAH

Lunch today is Capricciosa Pasta & Pizza in Pavilion ( LG food court, beside Pepper Lunch)
dated myself.
i walked into the restaurant by myself and i felt like im a boss. hahah
ordered Creamy Pomodoro Salmon
because my life is incomplete without salmon. lol


RM29.90 comes with a complementary 3 sides.
Stir fried vege, mashed potato w carrot, beef meatball
the meatball was kind of hard.. but the other two were good. especially the carrots =P 

here's the pasta. Pomodoro is a creamy tomato sauce.

something new, not as creamy as carbonara, but still very filling

i would say it's delicious lo. hahah gonna try pizza next time? :P

and for drinks i went for Choc Mochaccino, its a blended ice cream + chocolate + coffee
at the first sip i can literally taste the ice cream. heaven. hahahahah

last but not least, #ootd !

legs can't grow any longer already! :( 

记得

在YouTube晃了一圈
又回到这首耳熟能详的《记得》

最初原唱是A-mei 张惠妹
后来不断有人翻唱
有梁静茹 萧敬腾 方大同 林志炫
到最后 林俊杰在《她说》专辑中，重新诠释这一首他多年前写给阿妹的歌

都听过了
每个人都comment说方大同选错歌来唱了
说他太soul 太blue 太R&B 不适合唱这样的歌
可是Khalil的版本 却是我最喜欢的版本

可能他的唱法没有JJ 阿妹 林志炫的好
但是这个版本 我第一次听 就被编曲刺到了
没有太多 开头都是很简单的钢琴声
二段稍稍搭上哀哀的小提琴

慢慢加强的钢琴声
让整首歌听起来
他真的很累了
他的伤心 是埋在心里面 很深很深 很久很久
很难说出来

2:25那里 爆发着 像在说
“你真的不记得了吗？”
然后再一段静静的 显露无奈

记得那一次
在他的演唱会
他弹唱这一首
我还真的泛泪 LOL

方大同 记得
Timeless 可啦思刻

给阿公：

阿公，还痛吗？不痛了吧？

阿公啊，对不起。这几年都很少和你说话了。不是我不跟你说，只是每一次我在你旁边，你都看不到我。我叫你，你也听不到。爸爸说要大声点，所以每次我只是用喊的叫你一声阿公，还有阿公吃饭！就没再说话了。

两年前的团圆饭，我看到你吃得满嘴都是饭粒，我其实也有心疼，知道阿公真的老了。

然后最近这几个月你患上了脑退化，别说我们了，有时候你连爸爸都不认得。几个星期前爸爸还跟我说，阿公现在快乐了，没烦恼了。

但是今天爸爸和我都很感慨。你辛苦了一大辈子，快乐也只是那几个月。阿公你身体还强壮，如果不是这么一跌敲到头，我们最少还可以有多几年一起过。

和你的记忆虽然不多，但是想想，可能只是我不记得了。

很小的时候，“阿公阿嫲来了！” 哥哥姐姐和我都飞着出去门口。然后你和阿嫲会下车，打开van的后座门，问我们要喝什么。如果有F&N grapefruit，阿公一定先问我们要不要。还有kickapoo。然后我们一进门就被妈妈骂。现在每次看到那种玻璃瓶的汽水，会真的很怀念。

每一次我跟妈妈去pasar，都是留妈妈一个人进去买东西，我坐在姑姑的档口等她。有时候阿公你会坐在对面，或者你会在面档吃面，我过去叫阿公的时候，你都会“喂！阿薏！呵呵呵。”

每个孙你都好疼。以前我考第一的时候，你会知道的。(gombak的八婆太厉害了) 然后你又送过我链子，耳环的。虽然我都没有戴（因为学校不给戴，还有因为是金），但是我记得的。那对耳环是有镶着红宝石的。还有你每次跟别人介绍，“我大儿子的女儿，很厉害读书的！”

阿公，怎么办，其他的我好像都不记得了。

只是人越长大，要面对的要接受的越是严峻和残酷。

……

阿公，好好走。

好多人都来送你了。阿婷阿雯他们都在。Vivi也在。牵挂这折磨人的东西，我们来就好…

*********

人生短短几十年，好命的，子孙满堂，安享晚年。

阿公今天回家了。

星期三早上，我是被一个很血腥的恶梦惊醒的。起床后准备去上课，我妈给我发了条短讯，说阿公去世了，要我回家。

阿公是在上个星期六跌倒，敲到后脑，淤血留在脑部。他已经昏迷几天了。但是情况还算稳定。星期一时我还听阿嫲说她叫阿公时，阿公有反应。然后星期二早上医生说要给阿公插喉管输药，但是阿公又发烧。晚上阿公退烧了，医生说隔天早上就可以准备插喉管了，谁知道阿公凌晨三点就走了。

这几天一放学就在姑姑家陪着阿公。虽然累，但是我已经没有别的可以为阿公做了，除了这样尽孝。

当然，这几天发生的事情也不少。我爸七个兄弟姐妹，个个都有故事。故事丰富，但多数都不是好的。其他的可以不说，除了这女人。

她是极品。

she gets cheesy.
she gets clingy.
she gets angry.

he replies to the cheesiness.
he answers when she asks.
he apologizes for what he missed.

she's stressed up. he cheers for her.
she's sick and he went all the way just to make sure she's alright.
he brings her out.
he calls her.
he gives positive comments.
he pays attention.
he being supportive.
he praises her.
he appreciates her existence.
and
he doesn't flirt.

im not talking about my boyfriend.

le campuran

actually right, i wanted to blog. but i couldn't transfer the pictures from my phone to my laptop. whenever i plug in the usb, my laptop tells me that it cannot recognise the device...i was like..okay. and also my phone damn shit larrr memory running low thus cannot take picture. OKAY. everytime when a new phone is launching, my phone will test me by giving me lots of problems. last time when S4 launched, and now i5s.. cannot run my mobile data..so stupid! even the line also got problem. walao. Walaoeh. lol

ok and finally my laptop 'recognized' my phone again last night.

so for the past few weeks, after im back from Koh Samui, i've been to Bali with family, and then be the tour guide for the 2 japanese.
then there's another batch of medical sciences students in imu, so there's orientation, i signed up as an OO but at last i didn't attend most of the activities due to the sexy hip problem.

Group 3rection for ME213

hahahah don't think the senget way. it's a short form for 3-direction....muahahhaha

and here about my hip. #justsharing
one day in the morning i feel the sore on my left hip, and then the second day it turns into pain. i have trouble sitting down, sometimes even walking, and i couldn't sleep well for 3weeks because every night when i wanted to turn my body around the pain wakes me up. sienz. my left leg loses strength like most of the time, but the pain did not radiate.
diagnosis was : having inflammation at the sacroiliac joint.. reason unknown. LOL 
i guess im better now? hmm. but can't run for the olympic day run this sunday yet ;(

i just love looking at x ray films. the skeletons are so sexy the joints are so seductive everything you see from the film is so SEXAY

big ass i have hahaha

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received one very romantic gift from my baby. it's a TRANSFORMER!!-- a portable charger

was planning to buy one since jan/ feb this year. because that time my phone's battery was draining faster than lightning. every morning i plugged out 100% and walked to uni, settled down in auditorium, it like less than 10mins, then i took out my phone and it dropped to 90% already. LOL

then i bought a new battery instead of a transformer.

thank you baby :D don't have to worry about getting killed by my parents when i go out dy. because my phone is always at a low battery level in the evening/ at night. hehehe 

went for a paintball game with the unimates last saturday. it's still awesome after so long since i last played.

this group of human is a wow. hahaha

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me is from a girl school. and these are my girls.

the one in purple jacket has just departed to India yesterday morning.

the night before we gathered at rujen's house to have a supper gathering, it was a pretty spontaneous plan but so glad that everyone was able to make it especially ec who was still in Kampar when wj confirmed her flight with us on Tuesday.

stole this from yanxian. hahahha

can't help cause she edits nice pictures. #ArchitectureStudent

pretty much summed up what we've done that night. blokus and mini uno for the first time.

until now we still don't know exactly how to play the uno spin huhh. hahahaha

and then on Thursday morning,

the real farewell

Wei jan, don't know since when and how we get this close to each other..you were always sitting at one side with ph and sivan they all. thought you were one of those people who i won't get close with, because your so good in ur studies and banana-like. hahaha

but now here we are, six of us from different backgrounds, fooled around everywhere, and now all of us are walking onto different paths again. but promise. we are always together. we may be separated in distance but never in heart. owhh so cheesy.

you're strong. i don't even know whether i will be able to go to a new place alone without knowing anybody at all. 

All the best WJ. a year will just slip away very soon. and then we will see you again. have fun and take care over there! don't diarrhea pls! hahahaha

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and me, going back to uni for my sem 2 next week.

thank god i didn't fail my final exam. but i wont be surprised if i failed -.- was enjoying too much before the exam and studied only 30% of my notes. haiz im the lazy one all the time. should really start working hard..

timetable for first 5 weeks (the cardio weeks) of sem 2 is out

why are there lectures on saturdays and the last lecture might ends at 7.30pm ah. omg man

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some days back~ went to pavi and levain with le boy and sis and mom.

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JJ's concert is like....less than 3months away! im..a bit excited.

Richard Clayderman is having concert in kl too!! im.. very excited!!

One Republic is having live at sunway surfbeach too!! im..too broke for that!!

dalalallalala

will be performing a string quartet (i guess) in november but i haven't get my ass up to practice with the group LOL i hope im not gonna screw it. can't attend the practice this sunday as well -.- my tutor's gonna kill me. ahh whatever.

=)

forever sleepy eyes <3 

mormorrr

here comes the random thinking time.

i fell down from a .. i dunno what does it call. something i was riding on in a fast food restaurant. i was 5. that thing was considered high for a kid. i fell down from the back when my cousin was shaking it vigorously in front. oh yeah. i don't think i cried. i stoned or i fainted. but i heard all my relatives screaming, "头爆了！"(which means the head burst. hahahha bleeding la) then i was rushed to hospital nearby, its just opposite the road. you find hospital selayang. hahaha. i was being sent into the OT or something facing down. that was the last thing i rmbr before i blackout again.


and then, i saw myself lying in the OT with doctor(s) and nurses around me getting busy with the back of my head. i was watching it from one corner of the ceiling as though i was floating. i thought i was dead.



this is not a ghost story. not a made-up story.
it DID happen.
and i think i am lucky enough to experience that.


#notetoself : Grateful

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back to yoga class this afternoon
haven't attended the last 3 classes due to laziness
and now my back is aching like mad. because we did this today

looks easy? try it and see. hahahah

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-Dress to impress-

did i actually just say that to others. LOL eventually yes.

Mega sales is here and i haven't get out of the cave and go for shopping yet..

for the past weeks i've received more than just a few sms notifying me about the members discount this and that. AHHH i want to go shopping.

i mean real shopping.

sometimes i hooked onto online shopping. err or you can say most of the time.

because those things i can find online are always nicer. cheaper.

but no one can guarantee the quality wor

also i tried to buy shoes before but the sizing is always NAYY

too small, all the time

therefore my online shopping mood is like on and off all the time~

but recently i bought a few stuffs from Taobao the china online shopping website

this shoes just caught my eyes like no others..there's another one with sky blue body and green shoe laces. likewise, was just trying my luck or taking the risk that the shoes might not fit..i decided to buy it. bcz it was selling at only 27RMB which means like..RM15? if cannot fit then burn only lo. It fits just wellllll OMG me so happy hahahhaha

also this dress at 45RMB. not bad de, a lil bit too short for me -.- still wearable but yeah, for me it's short. but nvm. hahahaha. this is another thing lo. the dress looks long on the models, and stated there the model is 167cm. and my last body check was only 157cm so i think aiya, they so tall also can wear. i got 10cm reservoir but NO. FAKE MODEL HEIGHT (or im not 157? XD)

my customized name necklace :D 

bought this few months back (before cny tbe) hahaha. like it so much. but the chain is abit too long leh even though i chose to have the shortest length haha. this is the problem when you don't get to see the item when you buy. nvm, still nice. i still like it.

got it here Glamtags 

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it's always nice to hear people talking about yourselves

good or bad

even if you got some so-called bad comments, why not you think this way : they are just trying to make you better. no point being upset with what they're saying. after all it's nice to know they are spending their precious time to comment about you. so cheer up babe ;)

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as i mentioned before, i had OSCE last wednesday (Objective Structured Clinical Examination)

thought i'll screw them all up cause i didn't practice like others do. and went onto vacation in Thailand some more. #YOLO

Back to uni on Monday and had a clinical skills session with my mentor. eventually my mentor is quite a big one in Clinical Skills department, so he has high expectation on me (lol). well. when practicing the physical examination i was like "Erm, erm, ahh, erm, erm......" and missed out a few things >< but he keeps encourage me to do it, and gives me motivation (i won't say pressure at this point after the sessions).. and then another session on Tuesday. it was a bit lame but all his comments stored in my mind.

We will know how we did tomorrow during the osce debriefing i guess.

please let me pass...>< not with flying colours, just a pass ngiek.

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alrite....

really need to study for final OBA in aug. one month time. im so screwed.

biochem, genetics, nutrition, anat & physio, patho, Pharmaco, immunity, microbio, comm med, statistics.. NONE IS DONE.

LOL

stupid pharmaco.