that one song

You might hear a romantic piece that brings out the loneliness in you. You might hear a song with motivating lyrics, it may or may not go into you, telling you, "You're not alone." It is almost inevitably to say that, music (or a song) can easily evoke your emotion. It is probably a song you have heard maybe 5years back. When you listen to it again now, you feel like you're experiencing where you were 5 years back, -- a drama you watched, a stupid thing you've done with you friends etc. At least, to me, some songs have this power, flooding you with all the memories and emotions back then. I can't be the only one.

There's a study on this. If you're interested, >> Music, Memory and Emotion 

I'm listening to this playlist on YouTube by a Taiwanese singer. And i was doing some cleaning when that song that 'Clicks' my memory came on. It's weird but i can't deny. It's painful to hear. But it also release me a little bit more.

This song grew up with me 2 years back. Each and every word stabbed right in my heart back then. Through this song, i learned how stupid was i. Through this song, i learned how tough i could be. Yes i'm one of those super emotional girls once in a while but i never let my emotions go out. Never talked to anyone how pain it is, how much 'squeezing' was there in my heart. No tears no screaming no nothing. Everything looks just fine. We all need to learn to heal ourselves from heartbreak. And that is a mission impossible for most of us. 'Time doesn't heal you, time numbs you..' How true is that? or we could. we just need a longer than expected time.

You may go hysterical, overwrought, you may go out party, eating alot, exercise the hell out of it. You may be quiet. You may be dropping your tears at night. You may be drawing shits on your diary, posting meaningless status.

No one can tell you what to do. No one can make you feel better. Seeing him/her again is a disaster. You smiled and said Hi. Your heart was racing like you were meeting him/her for the first time, hoping that s/he'll stay longer, talk to you a lil longer. On the other hand, you know you have to go or you will break down right there. You left. But you didn't win. You can never win.

You are not what you thought you are. 
And you are never gonna be the same as who you were.
Life shapes you. It takes away something from you, it implants something on you. Good ones or bad ones? Everything has two sides.


GG emo post. lol i'll stop right here. 
Good night. 
*i'm not emo now :P 

你曾说雨下的时候别低下头，要等候奇迹降落

我不懂曾想一起拥抱的彩虹，为什么只剩下我

原来呀爱情是不会留下什么  只留下残缺的梦

能不能再把你的爱借点给我  好让我继续漂流

我的倔强  疯狂  无法  逞强  流浪

是否只剩一人在寂寞战场

你的模样  说谎  眼光  装傻  躲藏  我逃亡

我的倔强  迷惘  去闯  彷徨  悲伤

是否应该不计一切去抵抗

你的模样  不像  遗忘  飘荡  摇晃  我投降