And 'sorry' doesn't cost a single cent. That's why everyone uses it. It's easy. It's what we've been taught. It's just a form of manners. It's meaningless.

I switched to flight mode. Because I tried too hard responding to everything that happened. I was afraid. Still, I am. I off the lights. I was…My brain cells all connected acetylcholine has been used up and regenerated and used up and regenerated again… My heart racing. Racing with my mind.

I don’t know if being conscious and reasonable 95% of the time makes me a more lovable person. I have never taken care of my own feelings on top of others’. I think I got it from my dad.

Just feel like..

I owe myself a huge apology. And i don't know how.